The remembering cliffs
The cliffs are full of faces, great granite heads Petrified just as they lifted from sleep. Stone heads of Martello towers, blank looks From the concrete helmets of German gun emplacements Now so assimilated with the granite and the gorse That they have lost their particular history.
These cliffs are full of faces, a cliffpath walk Inevitably winds back into past summers Bringing to mind voices in the wind, my family Talking as they walked the remembering cliffs. It is a haunted coastline and every time a corner's turned I meet my recollection of those who walked here.
I meet myself as a child who thought God had been born Floating face down in these waters His face big as a cliff's face, His body a small island. It was an untaught myth; my secret belief And life must have teemed about Him like the wrasse And the gulls and the mackerel crowding close to these cliffs.
The cliffs are full of faces that stare out to find Him And I stare too -- through the slits and cracks Of my fortified disbelief, of my adulthood, Into his comforting presence -- into the sea. Now the sea seems part of a once swollen certainty That has yearly drawn away like a lowering tide.
Postcard from Ithaca
The leather-faced waiter was once a sailor. I ask him for one last ouzo and fanta And in the bay's sleepy wasp-plagued taverna I awkwardly toast your memory In this roosting place of homesick dreams.
While the waiter serves a pizza to a German I'm thinking of my next destination, not this Hot and resonant Ionian harbour Berthing that bulbous Cephalonian boat Its bridge lambent with a crude Poseidon,
But rather somewhere that is beyond Ithaca; A new island perhaps, a rumour in the sea That makes everything ominous, so even This warm morning's ricochet of flying fish Seemed a symbol of the spirit taking wing. We reckoned ourselves to be Ithacans once But every journey lasts longer than a lifetime. Today I'll choke up this brine, gulp air again, Because now there are no deadly opponents And no-one's calling for clever disguises. I wish we'd known that once you' reached Ithaca You can only move on, like the boat's bored crew Who count aboard the straggling English tourists. From the bow I watch the waiter's back bent low In the slow repetitions of his evening.
I am leaving for another country
I require a plane, as it is far from here. One which will skim so low that I recognise Individuals I've known through its windows. And as I circle the smokeless chimney pots I'll peer into homes that gave me no welcome Overshadowing them with my perfect wings.
I will stride to the cockpit to take control For, as predicted, there will be no pilot And there shall be no-one to guide my landing. Momentarily, I imagine soaring Forever, never touching down; a Captain Of a fragile vessel of wing and prayer.
Even the autopilot has gone off-line There is nobody near but weird creatures Not birds, but flying squirrels, airborne spiders, Nimbi full of sucked up frogs and fishes Pterodactyls and forgotten animals Who have learned to spring vehemently upwards.
The sun does not set over the wrinkled sea I'm racing the sun to another country Where people amass, awaiting my landfall. And the astrologers fully expect me So I sport a full beard for the occasion As aspects of my deportment were foretold.
Full of hope, I imagine you will be there. Perhaps you carry a sign, or bear a garland Of blooms from the surface of a black river. Or you'll hurry me into a black taxi To protect me from gathered paparazzi And astonish me with your dazzling circle.
Will you be there? Or will you be with others? Or will you hang back, ranked perhaps By your age, or the love you spilled for me? If only I was sure you would be there, that You were awake, waiting among the sleepers In the tired midnight lobby of the airport.
(c) Peter Kenny 2001
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